when i remember my childhood my grandmother beat or shouted on me , the first thing that came out from my month is death, i want to die or to kill myself, when i remember my grandmother she always look that me and wave her head ,said oh no little grandchild , everyone calling death but no one ever call sickness , i do not understand deeply why or what my grandmother mean by saying such a thing , by saying the statement, little child always called death with is month, but refusing to know someone would sick before he or she died,
i growth up to understand the parable of my grandmother ,it means a lots with that, she also said sometime a little child can only swear with death but is can never swear with sickness , i was thinking sickness is just cool and high temperature and malaria or fever it end there never knew there is sickness that can take you from high to low or make you losing everything in some body life make you became useless, just like a story of job in the bible ,always being thinking in my own way someone can make his self pretending in time of sickness , dear that came never be true.
my grandmother also tell me ,month that someone used to call sickness, that month not worth or met to eat , i do not understand ,mean your is precious and gold you can not use that sickness , i was too small to understand her, until today i know the meaning of those grandmother words, sickness is bad to explain in some body life, death is a common thing to say, a sickness without medico cure it only GOD you called FOR YOUR help to be your healer, it a pitting my grandmother is rest in peace today to tell this story,
i am 42yrs old today i live with my grandmother at the age of 2 to 12yrs old, i was back to my father house to finish my secondary school, before the end of my secondary school i lost my father when i was 18th years old, after two years with the hardship of african and no help from none, i decide to travel out from the country after one year i sucede to enter europe. european country was no easy for new enter i suffer for more years running from scatter to scatter . sickness is very bad demon came to steal and destrol, but always believe there is someone that much, much greater than the demon, my living God who have the final say of my life if only you have the believe the lord almighty he is my life designer , when you are in some difficult situation you walk with darkness , move without light, no one to counsel you ,you are now see yourself in point of death without non single friend around, dear all you need to do just take heart, believe that you are not alone , that is he only way to over come,
what is worse than sickness, i always said to people only fear in my life is sickness , i don,t afriad of death because i believe that is were you get rest, i know when death can know one can hold it .
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